When watching a movie I always want grab the remote and fast-forward to the good and juicy part, the climax of the story. I sometimes I wish my life had a remote control.
Subconsciously I’ve been sleeping through certain seasons in my life, I was there but not really there. I couldn’t wait to hurry through my pre teen years and get on to being a real teenager, then when I was a teenager I couldn’t wait to finally go on to university where I could finally be independent. At university I couldn’t wait to have that man come and rescue me from my singleness, surely he would ride in on a white horse and just sweep me off my feet and change my life. I can imagine how the story would continue, I get married, then I can’t wait to hold that first baby in my arms, then they come. I now can’t wait for the moment when I don’t have to change dirty diapers every single day, the story continues.
If you’re like me we have to be careful not to sleepwalk through seasons of our lives because we’re trying to hurry and get to the next new exciting part.
Remember when Mary Magdalene went to the tomb after Jesus died, she was so consumed with her tears that she didn’t realise that the man behind her was Jesus who she had been looking for. It’s possible that as we’re trying so hard to quickly travel through this season of our life, we miss something really precious.
“Jacob awoke from his sleep and said, “Surely the LORD is in this place, and I wasn’t even aware of it!” Genesis 28vs16
If you look at the context of that scripture you realise that Jacob was on a journey, he had to leave Beersheba which was his home, his place of comfort. He was basically on the run on the way to a place called Haran. He was told in Haran he would meet his rich uncle and find a new wife, Haran represented a place of high hopes.
All of us are on a journey, in between our Beersheeba and Haran, the place where we have been and the place of high hopes we have set for the future. The problem is there’s a middle bit. Jacob referenced it as the ‘certain place’. It was a place where the sun of his hope had started to fade, where despair and fatigue started settling in. It’s a place where you feel underwhelmed, you thought you’d be further along at your job by now, that promotion should have been yours, you should have been married by now, everything should have been figured out by now. When Jacob’s anticipation and expectation for his future started to grow dark, he just decided do what we all do, give up and go to sleep.
Jacob later came to know that place was in fact a sacred place. That certain place you’re in that is difficult, that you’re trying to wish away, wanting to press the fast-forward button, may have been a surprise to you but it’s not a surprise to God. For before the foundations of the world he had that journey mapped out from beginning to the end. It was in that place that Jacob heard for the first time the voice of God, he saw him with his own two eyes, right in that dark and unfamiliar place.
In that certain place, he was surrounded by stones. Yet instead of picking it up and hurling a stone in frustration he used it as a pillow. He realised how to maximise the potential of the hard stuff on his journey, there is good stuff that is hidden away in the hardness of life. Too many of us want to see miracles in our lives yet rarely want to be in those actually seasons of life where miracles occur. We want God to move as long as it doesn’t mean that we’ll have to face a Red Sea with Pharaohs army behind us, but without the Red Sea no miracle can happen. Without Lazarus dying he cannot be raised back to life. There’s good in the midst of the hardness.
In that certain place God spoke to him in a dream, he confirmed his promise to him. There’s a difference hearing the promises of God in a place of comfort vs hearing it in that certain place. When life does not affirm, God will go out of his way to confirm he is who he says he is. He moved heaven and earth to make sure his beloved son knew his promises still stood true. Have you ever heard a sermon on Sunday and wonder how the pastor knew exactly what you were praying to God about, wondering if the church had bugged your house. That is God going out of his way to confirm his word to you even in that certain place.
God told him something peculiar to me, he told him ‘One day I will bring you back to this land’. I don’t know about you but when I’m in that certain season of my life, the place where the sun has set, the last thing I would want God to say is, we’re coming back. I’m trying to hurry my way through it, not revisit it again. When Jacob heard that, he awakened with new eyes, he looked around him and said “How awesome is this place”. This was the same place that he fell asleep in, the same place that was just a pit stop to his real destination.
When we’re racing to our desired destination, often times we have little concern for the relationships, the decisions, the choices that were making in that certain place. We’re just trying to get through it, but when you know that your going to return, that the decisions you make now are going to matter later, it causes you to look at that season you’re in with brand new eyes. For what you have to return to, will definitely concern you. You realise the seed you sow right now will be the harvest you reap tomorrow.
So whatever that certain place is for you, realise that God is there, tread carefully for that place matters on your journey.The seed you sow today is going to matter, so make sure you’re sowing good seeds, even in those stony patches. The decisions you’re making today are going to matter. You may be tempted to go asleep right now but keep those eyes open. Don’t sleepwalk through this season of your life, it’s not here by chance. In the race to move on to the next phase of your journey, don’t miss out on what God has for you right now. Yes we have great things in store for us in the future, but right now we’re here, so wake up to it and be present in it today.
“Wake Up Sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you”
Ephesians 5 vs 14
My Prayer today: Lord help me to wake up and be fully present in this part my journey.